Galadriel: Mithrandir, why the Halfling?
Gandalf: I do not know. Saruman believes that it is only great power that can hold evil in check. But that it is not what I’ve found. I’ve found it is the small things, every act of normal folk that keeps the darkness of at bay — simple acts of kindness and love. Why Bilbo Baggins? Perhaps it is because I am afraid, and he gives me courage.
~The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey
We live in a world that conjures up fears and weakens us with the illusions of control. Trying to hold the reins and have command over every aspect of every moment, leaves us bereft and at odds with the places where we lose control.
In the dead of the night, when we turn off the distractions, we feel the fears descend upon us; the fear that we are not in control. And our hearts race, and sleep becomes a place we cannot reach. Our very heartbeat becomes the monster in our heads, and we lose our peace.
It is in these moments that we must learn to reflect on the beauty of our lives. Are we fortunate enough to have a roof over our heads? Do we have a friend or companion on this journey? Did the sun shine warm upon your face for moment today? And was the book you finished a doorway to a world that lit up your soul?
I will share an email I wrote to an estranged friend who reached out to me because she was having panic attacks at night. To her I said,